Enough

It has been a long time since I've been here... since I've "blogged".
And that is part of the reason why... you see, I'm not a blogger.

There are a lot of things that I'm not.
I'm not a sorority sister,
I'm not a size 4,
I'm not a marathon runner,
I'm not a photographer,
I'm not a social butterfly,
I'm not especially pretty,
I'm not outgoing,
I'm not a member of the Junior League,
I'm not part of a big, important family in my small town,
I'm not June Cleaver,
I'm not Martha Stewart,

I'm not a lot of things.

And there are a lot of things I wanted to do which I don't.
I'd like to do dressage
I'd like to jump horses
I'd like to have a beautiful garden
I'd like to do only whole eating
I'd like to  keep a house like Martha Stewart
I'd like to be on the most liked list
I'd like to be a perfect soccer mom
I'd like to be a sharp dresser
I'd like to have perfectly styled hair every day
I'd like to be fit and thin and healthy
I'd like to be a good dancer
I'd like to be a good singer
I'd like to be a piano player
I'd like to be well traveled
I'd like to be well read
I'd like to do yoga everyday

There are a lot of things I'd like to do but I don't.

And that is fine.

Please don't underestimate that last sentence.
It is harder to believe than it is to say or type.

I've spent so much time worrying about what I'm not and what I don't that I have a difficult time seeing what I am and what I do.
I am a doctor.
I can do a beautiful perineal urethrostomy and save a child's cat that she got as a gift from from her grandmother.
I can remove a tumor from a dog's leg before it metastisizes to her lungs.
I can see the inside of a dogs heart to find diseased mitral valves and place him on medications to give he and his elderly owner more time with each other.
I can help a man say goodbye and end the suffering of his late wife's beloved poodle, who he has cared for and loved as his own for the years following her death.
I am a mother.
I can calm my screaming infant with one embrace.
I can dry my toddler's tears with a few words and a kiss.
I can hear my son's voice in the midst of a class full of children.
I can get a smile with one tickle or grin.
I can tell what by babies want and need when others cannot understand them.
I am a wife
and a sister
and a daughter
and a friend.

I am enough to those people.

I have wasted far too much time and tears and energy comparing myself to and trying to be other people.  But I am already enough.

I won't have an interesting blog to strangers, maybe not to even some of those people who I know.  But I don't care anymore.   I'll post when I feel like it and I'll write what I feel like.  No more trying to be something I'm not when there are people who already love me for who and what I am.  I'd rather be loved by a handful than liked by a bunch of strangers.

So that's where I've been for a while.
Now maybe I can find our camera cord... there has been a lot going on in our lives!

Hello Winter 2011!

 According to the powers that be, the official first day of winter falls on December 22, 2011.
I'm not quite sure who or how or when this all first came about but I skimmed over the topic here and it has something to do with the distance of the earth from the sun and Julius Caesar and tropical year and the pope and the Council of Nicea...
basically a lot of information I just do not have the room for in my brain right now...

...Caleb is officially a toddler you see...and I still have a full time job...and a full time marriage...so astronomy really doesn't fit in the top of my priority list right now.

...so I've decided that in my universe the first day of winter shall be December 1st...because that fits with my 12 months / 4 seasons = 3 months per season:
So as I see it December, January and February are winter
March, April, May are spring
June, July and August are summer
and September, October and November are fall.
This is how things have always been in my mind...I don't know when this winter solstice = first day of winter business began but I'll tell you right now it is false. 
Says me.

That being said, we'll proceed with this post.
You may have noticed that there has not been much to notice here on this blog...that's because this little fishbowl of ours has been jumpin' this fall.

We've had holidays:

pumpkin carving

picking out the perfect pumpkin

family photo op at the pumpkin patch

With Grandma having our pre-Thanksgiving

hunting for pecans at Grandma's

We've had sporting events:

"Hey!  I need more cowbell!"

visiting Mamma and Dadda 's alma mater

checking out Bully

"So there really ARE other bulldog fans.!  I was beginning to wonder if everybody but me yelled Roll Tide or War Eagle."

"Woo Pig Sooie!!!"  

We've hunted wild game:

Delta boy at heart!

Walks among the fall foliage:

Plus, we've had birthdays:

Our best buddy Bryce turned 1 year old!

Great-Grandma Fisher's big birthday get together

Uncle Mark was pretty funny!

In fact, the biggest event in our little fall was Caleb's first birthday!!!
He had a blast with all of our wonderful friends and family!

And now that the BEST SEASON of the YEAR (autumn) has come to a close it is time to buckle down and get ready for some serious winter festivities!  We have quite a winter planned and can't wait to begin!

And since December 1st is officially the first day of winter in the fishbowl a certain special little fellow made his debut:

Meet Nerwin Twizzlebottom,
the Fisher family elf:

Poor fellow must have been pretty chilly waiting all morning out on the front porch to be let in!




See ya next year Autumn, and Hello Winter!

back from vacation(s)!

So  I've been away from the blog lately...like over a month and a half lately...
I doubt that many noticed but just in case you did here is a brief summary of what has been going on in the fishbowl as we wrapped up our summer...


...work..work and more work...
eating...with our hands!!!

enjoying a minibreak-birthday weekend in our own town's resort...

and eating with our utensils...(sorta)...
crawling very quickly,

then pulling up...then cruising along the furniture

...in other words..getting into EVERYTHING!

road trip with Granddaddy Bull to Wisconsin

(14+ hours)...argh...

finally got there!  Days straight of playing with cousins Rae and Justin!

First trip to the zoo!!!
loving the jellyfish...
kinda a tough decision...who is cooler Aunt Wee-sa or jellyfish...

...definitely Aunt Wee-sa!
then sadly driving home from Wisconsin...
another 14+ hours...argh...

work two days then another road trip with Grandaddy Bull to Arkansas for the holiday weekend!

worked a week...and out on the boat...finally agreed to wear the life vest sans tears...

Off to Nashville Gaylord Opryland Resort for a veterinary conference...

remember my one night stint at our local ER veterinary hospital???  well picture me in 40+ hours of lecture about nothing but emergency and critical care! 
(I was sweating bullets at the hypothetical situations I could potentially end up in some day!  eeek!)
Lucky enough to visit with classmates from vet school...
watched our bulldogs get beat by a bunch of corndogs at the resort sports bar...sad.

Met the Hubbs and Caleb that weekend in Tennessee at his Uncle Mark, Aunt Amy and cousin Amanda's house for dinner...

ehem ahem...
somebody took his FIRST STEPS right there in their living room (about 3 steps to be exact)!!!
spent the next morning at brunch then in the beautiful walkways in the resort on Sunday

first escalator ride...not too sure about it...

 Caleb was living it up Nashville style!

then once again headed home...smarter, fuller and tired!!!
first ice cream cone...

Whew...its been a busy month and a half!

Good to be home!!!